[ [bogged down by fever] ]
-Friday, August 05, 2005-
death seems the easy way out when you are in a sickly state. but you know when your time is not up yet.
so yup, my days were spent falling in and out of sleep. it has been terrible days. feeling as though i could never get better. and i do not even know where did i ever get the bug of illness from? could be, the overworking of my body. and i pin my thoughts down on that reason. its like a cycle i think. and i know my body is too frail to take the heavy burden i have self-imposed.
but now i am feeling so much better thank you very much. pills has worked their miracles on me and i have overcome the tirade to be strong again. and i sit here typing events that has been on my mind. i guess u could say i have been missing out on alot. and this could be due to work restrictions. maybe going back wasn't such a good idea. but then again i do not know. i should pull myself out of this and put myself in a more flexible position.
i do not know what to say anymore. this blankness in my in mind is unacccountable. next time then.