[ [habits] ]
-Thursday, January 26, 2006-
lets talk about sleep. because that is what i have been doing since returning from a night of fun. and i have realised that i am not really a fan of the time of space before you fall asleep. you know, that stillness where thoughts will fill if left untouch. which it normally does. i do not like that point of time. it is also the point of time where your body decides or not whether you are gonna sleep or suffer from insonmia. and never catch a wink of sleep for the rest of the night.
as of now i am still very sleepy. this stupor of mine is not at all entertaining. it has barred me from having the strength to start on the examination studies. but this studying has always been an issue for me as can be seen on other posts.
one thing i have recently discovered. grey's anatomy has a very good soundtrack to match its exellent show. okay singapore is a little slow on bringing in quality US shows. so believe it or not i am just beginning to watch grey's anatomy. i admire the music supervisor of that show. that certain someone sure has a strong knack for picking good quality indie-pop music. from the likes of roisin murphy (ex-moloko), maria taylor (ex-azure ray) to the likes of quirky indie band psapp, to which ping kindly noted to me. the soundtrack is just one big pleasant company to the shows engaging script. but the thing with tv show soundtracks are always, these wonderful indie artist gets too recongnized and pretentious yuppies start talking and getting their "yuppified" hands on them and think they are "kewl". so boo to that. but oh well, these artists are in it for the recognition and sometimes the money.
the intensity of a relationship can really hurt whats ahead. the awkward point of time where you think conversation comes easy, but later slips into an uneasy silence is not one that i enjoy very much. i daresay i am not a good handler of awkward silences, that is why it baffles and intrigues me how certain somebodys can ward off the comeuppance of such a moment. it takes alot of wit and quick thinking. you know you just want to be all emo for the fun of being emo. and i can say, "i ain't no emoboy" cos truly i think i am. and that is the beauty of it. its a contradiction. and that is what being emo is all about. but i have my "emo-ness" under control. i do not doll myself up with thick make-up and drape myself with those horrid clothes of black. no offence to such people though.
i do not know whats up with the paragraph just now.
this writer shall sign off now.
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[ [snippets cut away.] ]
-Monday, January 23, 2006-
once again the room is cluttered and has not served as inspiration for study. again, the exam is tomorrow. and whoever knows what might happen tomorrow.
the papers has been interesting. ashley isham. just read a full length article about this london based singaporean designer. singaporean pride y'all! gosh, i feel like i just sold out. but nevertheless, its been good reading about him. he is still surprisingly rooted to singapore. his clothing line and brand are well featured and well liked by the likes of kylie minogue. he is going to guest judge in upcoming episodes of america's next top model.
moving on, what to a certain someone, that has called it the "party of the year", has indeed been quite bland a party. no matters, we still managed to maintain our own level of fun. poking fun at "rasputin's penis" and sitting around the dining table and watching the girls get freaked out by cockroaches. that is entertaining enough i suppose. the rain was quite the mood dampener but gave way to a pleasing cool, enough to make walking such a joy. walking such long distance was never that pleasing.
nothing much can be said by this writer. there is not much new music to review about, not much new movies to talk about. seeing as to how movies like brokeback mountain, matchpoint, capote, breakfast on pluto and transamerica are taking such a long time to land on singapore shores. the movie scene here has kinda backlogged. tis' a sad sad thing to suffer. tv is not really helping too. i read about being able to buy some cable thing that allows you to hook up cable tv in the US. that is a very tempting discovery to have uncovered. cos we all know that US tv is way better than singapore tv.
this writer has nothing much to say cos he feels guilty he has not studied.
this writer finds no mood to open his damned journalism book to study.
this writer's friendster has finally reached the 100th friend mark. please congratulate him.
this writer has a rather boring nature of writing and he knows it.
this writer's blogskin is rather old and stale. he swore to change it when time permits.
that is my monday. spent not studying and blogging in the third person.
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[ [vanity in cluttered space.] ]
-Monday, January 16, 2006-
see, we all think that our work is done, beautiful and complete. but that is through our eyes not the eyes of the harsh public. there is no saying what wondering eyes might think about it. there is no one way to judge. judgement is a stance that creates stigma in one's mind and thus affecting the whole outer and inner being. to overcome that stigma is a whole different matter. to overcome it, is a task that is tantamount. once you proclaim that you do not live in the stigma of judgement, i applaud you. such nonsense give rise to insecurities. and when insecurities are abound, you are a destroyed person. so i'd say to those trashy and classic artistes in big and small screens alike, whoo hoo!! job well done.
i call that picture vanity in cluttered space. just that the room is in a cluttered mess. and i guess, that gives rise to artistic expression and the convenience of a camera lying around. i don't know, how does one define artistic expression? its not about contrived beings walking and posing, its about spontaniety. doing things on a whim.
just like the studies. its the exams tomorrow and here i am, the perpetual procrastinator. with lots of inspiration swimming in the head but none for the books. just like the calling i am obligated to serve. just going to go about it with open mindedness and not looking at the watch.
with luck abound, i hope i make it through.
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[ [chance ocurrance] ]
-Friday, January 13, 2006-

this was a total chance ocurrance. i, or rather, we had no intentions of watching one of the most anticipated movies of '06. but we did anyways cos the original plan of watching broken flowers were thwarted by the lack of good seats. i think the picture kinda explains it all. we watched memoirs of a geisha.
let me start by saying that i have never read the book before. one of the drawing factors of this movie to me, was the fact that it was power packed with alot of prominient asian stars. with the likes of ziyi zhang, gong li and south east asia's very own michelle yeoh. and i am quite the advocate for asian talents over in the big US of A. so i was pretty hyped up over the movie.
so i sat for the movie, not knowing much of the storyline but with quite the open mind. i must say, the movie to me, did not fail to live up to its hype. with rob marshall, the director, the movie was quite the spectacle to behold. like with chicago, memiors visuals were stunning. the way the camera weaved itself through the different scenes were seamless. the way each scene was elaborated, it was absolutely breathtaking. it captured the old japan very nicely. the costumes were the most elaborate i have ever seen. the dance sequence enthralled me a great deal. so i would say a one up to the visuals.
as for the acting, whilst watching the whole movie, i kept thinking of other actresses that could have filled ziyi zhang's role. names that came to mind were the likes of lucy liu and many more. i even thought that her role should be filled by a true blue japanese. her accent was quite off at first but worked well into the movie. i thought, personally, the one that gave a stellar performace was michelle yeoh. her acting was not too over the top. she really understood her character and had executed it was just the right amount of grace and integrity. her kindness shone through so much in her role that you did not expect that she was doing all of this under the influence of the chairman. out of all the accents i found michelle yeoh's to be the best. not too much, just the right amount.
overall it was a good movie to watch. even if it did not quite match up with the book, watch it for the visual, the soundtrack and the art direction of the movie. that certainly got me hooked through out the whole movie.
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[ [one quick post] ]
-Wednesday, January 11, 2006-

what can i say about '06. with the progress that i have made, i would come to the conclusion that it has been slow-moving. and the weather ain't helping either. constant rain and my harkening back to work has made the beginning of my '06 rather bleak and monotonous. work has been a killer. what with all these company politics going on and stuff, no one is really in a giving mood. stuff on the family line has quieten down, let's just say that the cloud has clear thank you very much. but lucky for me, the music has been very giving.
let me explain. a few days ago, or the day before, i was listening to lush and stumbled upon this track called connected by chateau flight. i knew i had to check them out so i did. okay that is their album artwork there. how do you descibe their sound, i would say, electronica meets ambient meets trance? yup that basically sums it up. and i have been hooked up on them ever since. let's just say i am a sucker for new unheard of mainstream music. they are this duo, i think, who has been around quite long. but seeing a not so stellar review on their album at amazon.com has got me comtemplating whether or not i should get their album online. but then again i might just get it on a whim. besides its good music and i can't seem to get by means of other ways. so i am contributing back to the "no priracy" campaign. so if you are into electronica, ambient music check out chatear flight. they are french by the way from france. au fon ce~
what came in the mail just last week?
i think i have mentioned this other band before. si*se. i had ordered their album more shine from amazon and it has just gotten into my mailbox last week! yay! and i am not too wholly disappointed with the album itself. it is a great album by the band. their sound is spanish with hints of electronica, chillout music and easy listening. so its smooth on the eardrums with enough drumbeats to make you shake that lazy ass. besides that, not knowing spanish has made their songs more interesting too. overall an album that does not disappoint. quite the grower. worth the wait and money.
okay that marks the end of my periodic music review.
hope u enjoyed it.
comment if u will.
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[ [the getaway] ]
-Sunday, January 08, 2006-
so according to sam i should not be so emo when blogging about my getaway to a kelong in "malaysia, truly asiaaaa"! okay sam i shall try my very bestest not to be emo. how can i anyway with me always thinking about that down girl.
i have decided to call the kelong trip " the getaway". okay i would have to admit that i had doubts about the kelong we were going to. but we went on ahead anyways. i think the trick with this kinda of trips are to go about it on a whim. we met up in the wee hours of the morning. quite a down moment meeting so early in the morn. the drive was quite enjoyable if not for the rain. i was quite happy to be able to bring sam amb to malaysia. since i have been kinda raving about it to them and they think that i come from there. but i do not come from there! i am singaporean.
anyways i digress. the boat ride from the jetty to the kelong was wet! but that was just the tip of the iceberg. learning to fish was a killer. no idea how in the world to use a fishing rod. but soon got the hang of it through the teachings of the locals with heavy accented malaysian chinese. the winds were strong and so were the rain. but it only rained for awhile and the sun came up. food came to us when the bell rung. good food!
okay highlights of the trip:
the down girl. for more info go to sam's blog.
the wind. very cooling and peaceful.
the chilling with sam amb and kiat. for kiat i'm not sure.
the cleaning of the beds with sam. that anal girl.
the sleeping with the sound of the sea in our ears.
the playing of "girl buddy" with sam. i liked fishing but got sick of the pulling and throwing. hence.
down moments of the trip:
the puking on the way back to the jetty. come on the damned monsoon sea caused it! the bumboat too.
the rain. it rained on the second day.
the getting hooked by the hooks on my fishing line. ouch!
i think the good outweighed the bad. so it was a good trip in the end. good company. ping should've been there. but i think she would have frowned at the living conditions. but oh well we roughed it out. and did not regret it in the end.
good combination. a good getaway.
the winds combined with fishes, company and the rocking of the kelong has made this supposedly emoboy not so emo. it has made me rejuvenated boy!
"malaysia truly asia!!!!!!!!!'
[places right hand on left shoulder and does of a half bow]
more highlights to come once i am not so tired.
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[ [continuation] ]
-Monday, January 02, 2006-
"happy new year, compliments from the season!"
well there is no use in moping in such wasted depression. so i was thinking of making year-end lists, you know, the kinds where you say what were the highlights of '05. I was about to make one but thought that it was rather redundant to make one. so i just did not make one. hm, how long has it been since i started blogging? i think its almost or a year already. oh well.
sometimes you say things out of anger but sometimes its how you truly feel. this year has started in doubts, but who knows, anything gives.
my new year was spent with my friends. which was a first. and i forsee more of such happening. its truly a good feeling to know that you have your friends besides the ones who gave you life. i am truly thankful.
blah blah. its another one of those posts again.
its no use moping over wasted depression.
i shall chant that under my breath.
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[ [emoboy] ]

the waterworks was finally turned on. it felt weird. but at the same time a liberating moment for me. daggers were thrown without ever showing signs of stopping. it was like the arabian nights massacre. no one was spared except the attackers.
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